My first blog, unless you count livejournal, deadjournal and all that shite I used once and never again some time in the 1990's?
Not a very good day today, feeling crap as it was and I made a fuckup of monumental proportions by asking something I already knew the answer to and didn't even need to check on, but due to a past scarred by utter demonic slags, I had to ask the one Angel in my life to be sure. I didn't need to, God only knows the upset she feels now :'(
And so, hence the title of the blog. It's also a quote from HAL 9000, but it is also down to my human error today. I keep telling myself that. That I *am* human and I do make some mistakes, after all, I myself was a condom busting mistake. But shouldn't have needed to ask no matter how it looked. I'll try to make it up to her. I hope I can. Without her in my life I got no reason to carry on, I'm here for her.
Okay incase I'm entirely clueless here, I *think* blogs can be read by just about anyone, or anyone you allow to. Since this is just created I shall assume that as default, anyone can read this so if you are reading this, give me a clue as to what people write in them?
I don't really know what the point of them is, or indeed why I want one. Maybe I just need to find a way of writing some things down. When I was much much younger I used to scribble my random thoughts, fears, ideas etc in a big A4 scrapbook. My teacher opened it once when I went for recess and figured I needed some "professional help" heh, I think it was down to the fact it was all red pen, more than the depressing content.
Fuck knows what I am doing with a blog, I used to be one of the most up to date kids on the internet. I was there when Lilith Astaroth was new. I was there when modems were like 28kbps and before that. Now it seems kids know more about these blogs and social networking sites. I'm too old school for that, I'm still of the opinion the NSA, CIA, FBI, MI6 etc are using them to spy on the masses for the small factions within the world governments who want total control.
God, I miss the days of hackers fighting the system, rather than stealing credit card details..
